Rosie Thomas lyrics

Another gem I wish I'd written myself. Much better when put to music, but this should suffice...

Gradually

Gradually I will get wiser
I will get stronger
I will be bolder
I will not settle
I will flirt back
I will stand up or
I will sit back

All this time you thought I was
Weak when I was just pretending
I was just pretending
All this time you made me believe that
I should be sorry
I should be sorry

Gradually I will outrun you
I will outgrow you
I will ignore you
I will see clearer
I'll overcome you
I will acknowledge how far I have come
All this time you thought I was weak
When I was just pretending
I was just pretending
All this time you made me believe that
I should be sorry
You should be sorry for making me fall

Gradually I will get older
I will get wiser
I will move slower
I will see clearerI'll over come
I will acknowledge
How far I have come
All this time you thought I was weak
When I just pretending
I was just pretending
All this time you made me believe that
I should be sorry
You should be sorry for making me fall

Halloween (pronounced HOLLOW-een)

Am I the only one who isnt thinking of a Halloween costume? I dont even know what people do up here for Halloween AND it falls on a Wednesday. I am so uncreative when it comes to this day that for the past three years I've been Marilyn Monroe. I wore a different dress each year (who has that many Marilyn dresses? I mean really...) but still. I have no imagination when it comes to Halloween. So I think I'm taking a year off...I feel lame.

Grooming Mishap

I kind of shaved off a patch of my eyebrow. It looks like brow stubble now and its at the very beginning, right about the inner corner of my right eye. Seriously? Who does that?

Still Getting Organized

I finally bought an over-the-door shoe rack yesterday! I can finally get the six cardboard boxes of shoes off of my floor. My room looks huge now. Where can I find a rug that isnt Persian or motherly? Target & Bed Bath & Beyond didnt seem to have what I was looking for. I also got my godmother's writing desk set up and it goes perfectly with my room. It's finally coming together...can't wait for people to see it :)

For The Girl Who Knows Me Better Than All The Rest...

This song played on Grey's and the lyrics made me think of you and how you've been such an amazing friend through it all.

"Life brings change
But my promise is the same
And through these years we've been together
Life has made us grow
But through it all I know
No matter what may come
My heart was made for you forever"

Change Is Gonna Get Ya

I'm off to LA again on Wednesday. Another 3 am-er.

I was really caught off guard last trip to LA because I missed my new home almost daily. And it wasn't any one thing. Maybe its just life and the things I'm dealing with right now. It wasnt that I wanted to get back to SF to escape, but I just started feeling like, for the first time, life was changing around me and I had no control over it. I'm starting not to fit perfectly into my LA life anymore and that's a scary realization. And I know it was bound to happen...I just didnt expect it to be so obvious...I was kinda hoping it would just phase itself away.

I rejoined WW last Monday night. I've been tracking for a straight 2 weeks now and I feel like I'm already losing some. I hope it sticks this time. I've just really got to keep with it. I bought tons of healthy stuff from the store the other day...and its not even processed foods. That in itself is a big change from my first go-round with WW. I'll report back with my first weigh-in.

Ok So I Lied...

I forgot to include this week in my LA tour schedule. Surprise! My boss called me last week and said he was flying me out again. I'm here until Tues morn.

Woke up again at 3 am. Had the worst time falling asleep...I maybe got 2 good hours of sleep. I'm barely hanging on at work...6 more hours until nap time.

Decided to take the same bus route this morning, which drops me off at Powell St right a block from BART. Ran into a guy asking if I wanted to buy his $1.80 ticket off him for $1 - said he needed food and later added that he just got out of jail. I only had a $5. I felt bad...he kept apologizing and I heard an announcement 5 mins later that if you were caught panhandling you'd be kicked out. I'm sure it was a scam but he was so damn convincing.

On a fun note, I met a guy in the elevator who was flying back to Toronto. He'd gotten off on the Muni floor (which I did last trip out). We talked for a bit and he said he was going to stick close to me because I "looked like I knew what I was doing." Hah! I think that makes me a bonafied city girl :)